I'm sitting here in my hospital bed having taken I think 15 mg of Olazapine with no effect. I slept from 10 pm to 11:30 pm. I tried to tell the nurses at the front desk but they just got angry with me for taking something else than what's prescribed. Which is stupid. I'm not doing anything neglectful. I'm too tired to be doing anything spiteful.
I just want people to know what methadone has done to me. I'm not saying it will happen to you as a pain management patient. Perhaps it might. For me, it doesn't. It's killing me slowly and surely.
It's killing my sleep. It's causing my temperature to rise. It's making my reflexes slow down. It's making me have troubles standing. It's causing my blood pressure to go up. It's a horrible drug that I don't believe should be on the market.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Does methadone affect the heart?
This is my story about how I ended up on methadone. I never wanted to be on methadone. I'd already heard and read enough about it to know that it was a horrible drug. More horrible than the medications I'd already been on but I wasn't given any choice.
Back on July 22, 2013, I had a root canal done and it was botched. He went through my sinus and left material in there and somehow damaged my trigeminal nerve. I've been in constant burning, aching, crushing, boring into the side of my face pain since then. I also have a headache that is like a migraine but won't respond to the traditional medications.
Since then I have been to see at least 15 different doctors and specialists, asking, pleading and begging for help with my pain. My family doctor gave up on me about 4 months ago and forced me to go on methadone. I had told her multiple times that I wasn't going on it. The risks were too much for me. I'm basically a single mom of 4 kids and I couldn't take a risk. But she cut me off the morphine and dilaudid, stating that she felt like a drug dealer and couldn't give it to me anymore. Even though I was stabilized, she made me go off and forced me to go on methadone as an answer.
Since being on it, I have developed a horrible amount of problems which have affected me and my family. This is not a drug to be prescribed for chronic pain. It slowly eats away at you. I have rage where I never had before. I forget things constantly. I have nothing for short term memory. I can't add basic addition, even 8+4 gives me pause. I can't sleep. I take 2 sleeping pills and all I get is 3 hours of sleep. I've become someone who subsists on naps.
I'm in the hospital now, hoping that somehow, I can get off this drug and back onto something that helps. Chronic pain is relentless but methadone is not the answer.
Back on July 22, 2013, I had a root canal done and it was botched. He went through my sinus and left material in there and somehow damaged my trigeminal nerve. I've been in constant burning, aching, crushing, boring into the side of my face pain since then. I also have a headache that is like a migraine but won't respond to the traditional medications.
Since then I have been to see at least 15 different doctors and specialists, asking, pleading and begging for help with my pain. My family doctor gave up on me about 4 months ago and forced me to go on methadone. I had told her multiple times that I wasn't going on it. The risks were too much for me. I'm basically a single mom of 4 kids and I couldn't take a risk. But she cut me off the morphine and dilaudid, stating that she felt like a drug dealer and couldn't give it to me anymore. Even though I was stabilized, she made me go off and forced me to go on methadone as an answer.
Since being on it, I have developed a horrible amount of problems which have affected me and my family. This is not a drug to be prescribed for chronic pain. It slowly eats away at you. I have rage where I never had before. I forget things constantly. I have nothing for short term memory. I can't add basic addition, even 8+4 gives me pause. I can't sleep. I take 2 sleeping pills and all I get is 3 hours of sleep. I've become someone who subsists on naps.
I'm in the hospital now, hoping that somehow, I can get off this drug and back onto something that helps. Chronic pain is relentless but methadone is not the answer.
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